Monday, January 07, 2008

Dedicate my life

Well, I haven’t posted in quite a long time… and during that time many interesting blog-worthy things happened… But it’s unlikely that those will ever be posted here. Not that I didn’t think about this blog, but when I think about it I end up rereading it. I like lots of the stuff that’s here and don’t feel that I should add something to it.

Also I’ve recently been operating under the assumption that nothing really matters. Not in a destructive way, like… lots of things matter… almost everything matters… but, nothing really matters. I’m not sure I mean that, but when something happens that I disagree with I tell myself that nothing really matters… then whatever outcome occurs… doesn’t matter. Whatever… this isn’t really following the title of the post…

Things I’m thinking about dedicating my life to:

Kid(s):
I want to raise the best of the best kid(s). Always be there to provide. However, this is usually called living through you kid(s), and usually thought of as a bad thing. I don’t think that will be a problem, I believe that I genuinely want kids and to raise them the best to my ability… so if I had to pick from this list that you haven’t read yet, I would probably pick this. So, why continue reading? Ah, yes, you looked ahead and saw the words, ‘fight club’ so you had to…

Spouse:
Fight Club narrator: "I can't get married - I'm a thirty-year-old boy."
Marriage is a thing for other people... I really don't see myself getting married within the next couple years... However when I do get married then I plan on dedicating my life to the person. And in a somewhat related topic; I think that I'll wait until marriage to have sex. There are numerous good augments on opposing side; such as: "why?" Which I admit is a good one, this strong counterpoint usually stops me for a while... Until I unoriginally say: "I don't know... ... ... why not?" Which also is a very valid point... So we shall see.

Money: Yep...
Oh, I mean... Uh... I believe that I've been seeking money my entire life to pay of college. Because getting this degree will not only waste the best years of my life, it will also set me back $100,000. Lets see... $5,000 - $100,000 = promising future. It seems that everybody today is graduating from college and to give future me a chance in the world, I need that degree... So I'm going for it... *I have had no other purpose in my life than to improve my life in the future.* And up to this point that’s all I've done, and what I continue to do... So at this rate I'll end up dedicating my life to myself... Well crap... Let’s hope that changes... Or let’s hope this paragraph was all lies…

Religion: Maybe... We’ll see…
But this seems like a good place to put my religious believes… So, I’ve gone to ‘The New Church’ for over a decade… So what follows is a very plagiarized list of things they believe that I also believe: Freedom: It is important to worship in freedom. We must be allowed to decide what we understand and believe for ourselves. Reflection: Worship creates a space for us to look at our lives with perspective. It can also be a time to consider how the teachings in God’s Word apply to our lives. Charity: Worship is about teaching us to be caring. Facts are not most important. Creating and supporting a desire to live well, and to act fairly and with consideration, are the main purposes of worship. Learning: A worship service should help us see truths and their practical relevance to our lives. Free will offering: We do not pass the plate because we respect people’s right to freely and privately choose to contribute financially. If we live according to our religious beliefs with sincerity (regardless of name or label) We are welcome into heaven. Heaven and Hell are both states of mind which we form while here on earth. Whichever one we choose is how we live on after death forever. Heaven is a kingdom of usefulness – not idleness. Heaven is not a reward for so many good things we’ve done or for having the right faith – we choose it by what we love and how we live. No one is cast into hell. If one goes there it is freely chosen because of selfish or hurtful loves that we embrace. ...and some other stuff but this section is getting kinda long...

Job: I could see this happening. I think I'll commit myself to whatever it is I end up doing, but there will still be room for some of those other four to jump in there and complete my life.

Whatever…

L8R -- Michael